It's official my room is empty, the truck is gone, my mom is driving across America with my true love, Wall-e, and I'm spending the next three days on the couch until my flight leaves. Moving to a new place is an exciting and completely terrifying experience. So I thought I would share with you the 10 things no one told me about moving.
1. The anxiety
As many of you probably don't know, I suffer from social anxiety and as a kid would experience panic attacks. For the whole start of January, I was fine. The thought of moving to a new state, new house, with new people, was a very exciting thought. But that all changed the week of my move. Something about having to completely pack up everything that was mine and putting it into a truck made this whole move real and the anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks. It became hard to breath and a sick feeling in my stomach and of course the thought of having to leave my Chihuahua with my mom to drive across state was frightening. But as the week went on all these things became better. I feel more excited and even less sad because I know Wall-e will be waiting for me at the end of my flight.2. The feeling of a new beginning and the need to get rid of all the bad things in my life
I am moving on Chinese new year and since the new year always brings me the feeling of needing a new beginning. I've also been feeling the need to get rid of things in my life and I'm not just talking physical objects. I'm going to be in a new place with new people, friends, and opportunities. This has really made me question the things in my life, my relationships, my career choices, my health, and my dreams. I've decided that it is time to let go of some of these things. I'm going to give my all to my music, no holding back, every opportunity.
3. Leaving behind the ones you love
With every move, you can't expect everyone you love to be on the same page. While my mom, my little brother and myself decided to move. My middle and oldest brother are staying behind in Arizona and while I never saw my older brother much anyways. It's still a weird feeling to know they won't be just a drive away anymore.
4. You don't all travel at the same time!
Since I'm not old enough to drive a rental car nor do we think our little car can make it across America, my mom and the dogs are driving the moving truck! While me and my little brother stay behind and wait for our plane to leave on Chinese new year! It's messing with my head that my puppies aren't around.
5. How weird it feels to have an empty room
After spending so many hours and so much effort to build and create my crazy clock, old book, artful room. It's strange to go into my normal brown colored empty room. It doesn't even feel like mine anymore. Just a blank canvas.
6. It brings out the anger, frustration, and tension
Like all joyful family events, moving can be an extreme one! Frustration builds, limits get tested, and a lot of pouting and anger happens but luckily it doesn't last very long and by the end of packing up the moving truck, everyone is laughing.
7. It's refreshing and fun!
A new year, a new move, and a new place. The Chinese new year always gives me a new refreshed feeling like I'm all the way back to the beginning and I have the whole year ahead of me. Now take that feeling and times it by three! I feel like I get to start all over again and it is so very fun, exciting, and delightful!
8. I'm sleeping on the couch?
The part of moving that didn't dawn on me until the day before my mom set out with all my stuff was...I have to spend half a week with none of my stuff (my guitar being the biggest withdraw), and that includes my bed and pillow! I'm sleeping on the couch with only my laptop!
9. It no longer feels like my home
Being in this big house with all of my stuff gone and a completely empty room it no longer feels like my home. I can go into my old room and it now feels completely different. The living room is creepily quiet like all the life of the house is gone.10. The opportunities
All the music opportunities Washington State is going to bring me is the most exciting part! I now have a developed voice, a full set list, and my own gear. I can play anywhere and I no longer have any excuse to not do it!In conclusion, moving is a wonderfully scary thing full of fears and delights. Overall, I am very exciting to be leaving to my new life on Saturday!
Comment below and tell me if any of these things happened to you!
